还给我-我曾经拥有的快乐生活。

What's wrong with my life right now ? What am I even feeling right now ? Who the heck even cares about me right now ? Who're the ones who really support me ? All these questions flooding my mind right now. So many things had happened during these few days and I'm like so out of my mind I feel like breaking down so badly ohmygod. I don't really know why I'm feeling so depressed. I already forgot the reason why I'm feeling so stressed right now.

Everyone's looking down on me, calling me stupid. That's a little too direct man. I spared a thought for you guys before making any negative comments cause being criticised at doesn't feel good. There's too many factors that caused me to feel fucked up but I can't recall them now. 

I think I really am fickle-mindled. What happened to the bold me ? I can't even make simple decisions by myself now. I thought scissors-paper-stone could solved my problems. I was wrong. I don't know if I wanna go to the beach tomorrow or go catch a movie. All I can say is that my life is crumbling into pieces now. It's not like I don't want to talk to anyone. But there's too many things to say that I don't even know what I want to talk about and I guess I'll just be wasting that person's time. 

There's Physics paper tomorrow and I've no mood for it. Zzzz.. I think I'm beginning to lose the war against myself.