Like a burnt out flame
I get confused thousands of times a day
Should I start seeing someone new?
I start to look, wandering here and there as if I’m crazy"
I've been sick since Tuesday and Common Tests are coming in like 4 days. I'm currently unmotivated to study right now because so many things have been happening these few days... Some stuffs that can't really type here because I don't want the whole world to know...
It's already August and looking back on my Secondary 3 life, I realised that I've been really slack with my studies... It takes me a really long time to start studying but once I do, it turns out quite productive.. I don't really know what I wanna do with my life T.T Just feeling lost every single time I think about my future. I think that I was born with a really easy life with over-protective parents compared to my peers. So I guess that I kind of take things for granted ?
I'll be frank about this ... Honestly, I don't really know if I really like him or not. It's like I unconsciously worry for him when he's sick and stuffs. But I'm really afraid to get into a relationship because when it becomes a big issue, I'll be in deep shit with my mum. I've been there and done that, so I obviously don't wanna experience it again.. So yea I don't really know what's on my own mind though. But it feels as though we're damn awkward now... It's always me starting a conversation though.. Makes me kinda think if I'm too clingy. But the thing is, when he's with me I take it for granted and when he's gone I miss him like a whole lot man...
Hopefully I'll be able to start studying later... *Sigh* There's just too many things popping out in my mind right now....
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