有梦想的人永远年少

It's currently the end of Y2S1 Week 4. Can't believe my summer just flew by like that. Major rag withdrawals because I really had a lot of fun amid the shit load of stress everyday. Miss working with everyone even though late night meetings pissed me off sometimes because I wanted to sleep so badly.

Kind of reaching the middle of Sem 1 right now, and I'm barely hanging in there :') So I got into Blast which really shooked me because I really had no confidence in getting in. But just thankful for this chance to grow even more in terms of dance. Felt really stress the night I received the good news because I was very worried about my studies and how I'm gonna cope with DDC too... Very grateful towards the Mech Eng guys for keeping me on track although they always make fun of me dancing 24/7 but mad appreciates because they always keep me in check and remind me that I've to study. Sometimes I wish that I could be more independent instead of depending on people to always remind me.

Somedays I wish my brain doesn't make me reflect about my life so much because it really stresses me out. Thinking about the things that I have done meh in and trying to come up with a solution to no avail is very frustrating. It's hard to draw the line between overthinking, and having some healthy thinking to improve myself. It's hard to fall asleep nowadays because my brain just keeps thinking when I close my eyes and like my chest feels so heavy its hard to fall asleep. I feel like life kind of has no meaning nowadays. It's just dancing almost everyday, and then squeezing in time to study and then coming back home feeling tired and trying to fall asleep. Really need to learn some time management skills and keep myself motivated this semester.

Here's to a AY of me struggling to juggle with all the commitments :') Super glad to have made a few bros these few months. Can't wait for Ascendance to end so that normal pracs will resume because I can't wait to dance with everyone again.

Here's another reminder to myself to appreciate the things that I have right now instead of focusing and whining on what I don't have.