The dream-like memories are thicker than reality.

One of the rare occasions when I smile with my teeth. (Bottom photo)

 

 

"I’ll be there when you don’t know what you should do
  If your heart breaks I’ll be there to fix it too
  I know I can't help but love everything you do
  But you can’t see that and girl I like that"

 

Wasted my whole Saturday as stated. Spent the night watching B.A.P weekly idol and Kara's Radio Star. I was like heartbroken when Kara cried cause the MCs kept pressuring them -.- I don't get why people must rub salt on other's wound. It fucking hurts. In he first place you don't even know what they're going through. Breaking up is part of life but the period it takes to recover depends on how deep your relationship is. If you were just playing around then obviously the pain won't last for long. People nowadays should seriously learn how to treasure their relationship. You don't stead just because some random guy asks you for one. In my opinion, I think Hara and Junhyung's relationship was rather sweet. So yeahh.. They broke up in the end. But there's still a whole load of stuffs awaiting for them.

 

"You'll never enjoy your life
  Livin' inside the box
  You're so afraid of taking chances
  How are you going to reach the top?"

School is gonna re-open tomorrow so I guess I'm screwed cause I'm left with like 12 hours to complete everything. It's not like I don't wanna do well for exams but I cant be bothered now cause I don't get what's the purpose of studying actually. Truthfully, I'm just studying for the sake of pleasing my parents. If my mum didn't cared so much about me then I'm off to dance and music classes already. But now I've already reached such an age where it's too late. Even if I want to be one at this age, I'll have to time to train which means that I can only depend on my talents, which I don't really have.  I think I'll eventually have to give up what I really want to do. I swear I won't treat my child like how my mum does in the future. But I actually envy my mum too. The reason being that it's hard bringing up a children who doesn't go the bad path and yet isn't a noob. I pity my brother cause he's a total noob while I at least know some sutffs about swag. And I'm not dumb, nor is my looks unacceptable, nor am I bullied and hated by others and my sports is average too. Thinking about nurturing a child seriously is tough. Nurturing a child who doesn't look ugly, knows swag, but isn't a gangster and isn't completely dumb.