Trails of footsteps left behind.

Bunch of stuffs I typed during the trip to Europe and Dubai : 

First night in Paris and I'm feeling freaking dejected right now. Reason being I forgot to bring an object used to take out my contact lenses. I'm feeling so lost right now. Hopefully my cousins manages to help me take them out tomorrow. Maybe you're wondering why can't I just take it out using my hands. But my lenses are hard lense not soft. So they need an object in order to take it out. All weary and tired now. Let's just hope this trip can't get anymore screwed.

Second day in Paris. I'm so embarrassed of my family now. Wishing that I could hide my face would be impossible. Everyone's judging. I can't say anything. They've no idea how retarded they are. One who doesn't admit that he's wrong when he is in the wrong. 

Third day in Europe. Having some 4h drive to somewhere. The roads are all surrounded by plain grass fields. I'm currently reflecting on life like what i always do on bus rides. I don't think I've lived life to the fullest. And K-POP has affected me too much. I'm not going to cut down on my obsessiveness but rather concentrate on my studies when I have to. I don't think I'll be able to do that though. 

Fifth day in Europe. Currently in Switzerland. Feeling all so pissed and fucked up now. Because my cousin gave me her camera and wants me to take picture so I agreed cause taking pictures were kind of fun. but it's the 3rd day I've been taking pictures and I am fucking pissed now because she keeps complaining about what photos to take. So i couldn't take it because what I wanted to take pictures of, she found them ugly. So I concluded that we have different taste in photography so I didn't want to help her take pictures anymore. I feel like fucking punching her now. Making me obey you just because you're bigger than me. Even when I talk I can't even talk freely. I must wait till i raise up my hands and she agrees to let me open my fucking mouth _|_ Lanjiao sia. Then you 翻脸. Woah ok you dua larh I cannot show face 👌 Then when you nothing to say liao say about my character say I don't understand my own character this and that. You just fucking shut your mouth ok. I can't even rebut freely now. What's your damn problem. You think I got attitude problem ? kcan I nothing to say larh ok. 

Flying off to Dubai soon. When taking the skytrain just now some Philipino ( I guess ) asked me where to get the boarding pass. And I'm like huh? Then I saw her lost face and it's like etched in my mind until now. I've been telling everyone about it but nobody gives a damn. Nobody cares about that lady. I just told her to go to the transfer counter or find an officer. But I'm not sure if she understood it anot. I only saw her asking another person as the skytrain left for the gate. Sigh. And I saw her holding the hands of her 2-3 year old daughter. It's so heartbreaking somehow. Someone lost in a foreign country and no one gives a fuck to help her. And what if she misses her flight ? Does she have any money to purchase a new ticket or survive the cold winter in another country ? Holy fuck. I can't forget her face. Why doesn't the world show care and concern ? If I'm alone, I would've helped her by bringing her to the custom officer. I SWEAR. If I wasn't with my family I would really help her. I think people these days just don't know how to empathize and help others. Many people just care about themselves being alright and not giving a fuck about others. And when you're in desperate need of help, you realise no one helps you. Thats KARMA. I can't believe no one in my family bothers to listen to me when I tell them I feel pityful towards the woman. 

Currently in Dubai right now. Going back to Singapore soon. Gotta wake up 4 hours later tocatch  the flight and I'm still not sleeping. I can't believe 2013 is going to come to an end.