I'm ruined.

#YOLO During Physics Lesson

"You were like an angel
Why am I such a good-for-nothing?" -1004 Angel

Becoming such a badass recently. Pon maths clinic yesterday and learning journey to parliment house. Went lunch with Jerica and Qianlin on thursday then me and qianlin had our mini shopping session. It's kinda sad that me and her aren't in the same class :( We kinda understand the feeling of being a loner. Anyway, it's my birthday month this month so I'm gonna go papermarket and spam buy stuffs that I want since I have membership discount. 3/4 done with the Vday cards... Currently left with cards for important people. 

*Sigh* I can't seem to study these days. I slept from 8 at night to 6 in the morning today when I'm not even having a fever or anything. IDK what to do with my life anymore. It seems like I have negative thoughts everday.. Talked to Junwei 哥 a few days ago and he's already entering the army today. Time passes so fast man. I can't even remember how on earth did I even meet him XD But he's a really nice bro though. Hopefully we'll be able to meet up soon(?) I can't wait to see his shaved hair. 

Can someone just tell me what should I do now? I'm being so paranoid nowadays at the thought of being a loner. Currently bombarded with tests next week and I'm so prepared to fail them. I kinda made a damn damn damn serious bet with myself. I've to pass all my subjects for Common Test 1 in order to continue my ballet lessons at the new studio >.< But it's gonna be tough because the exam rehersals date clashes with common test == I've no idea how do I even study for my exams on Wednesday. It's not like I'm really smart. 

SenWei kept irritating me during Maths lesson today ._. I mean it's kinda fun to joke with him sometimes, but he's gotta know the line. You don't fucking hell try to cut my hair man. I'm like so damn sensitive about my hair and you try to cut it -.-" Smart people sitting all around me in class (except for Derek) and I'm feeling so stressed right now. It's not like I don't want to do well.

During Chem Spa today Miss Teo was there too~ And seeing her somehow made me happy :P Haha ~ Then she approached me and told me that she'll keep an eye on my results. I'm like super duper touched. 

Hopefully that guy continues talking to me.... Dang it. We're like so on and off nowadays and IDK what the hell do I even feel.