Lights out.

It's like in the middle of common tests now and I realised that I haven't really been updating since last week. I decided to update only because these posts will be kept as memories to me when I read it in the future. 

Kinda wrecked today because PE was totally bullshit with all the running and I was already tired by the time it was time for CCA. I'm having Biology and A-Maths paper tomorrow and I don't even have confidence for Biology because I didn't even study a single thing yet ._. I seriously don't wanna fail anything this time though I know it's rather impossible. But I'm already trying my best to improve my grades. I spend lesser time on my phone nowadays and i really study during study hours now. If I'm really stressed after CTs are over I'm just gonna go to the canal and run or randomly sprint to relieve my stress.

Speech day is like next month and we received a new piece to play and it's like 8 pages long and we've to memorise it in 4 weeks == Kill me please. Speaking of killing, it's sometimes retarded how people say that they'll kill your mother if you don't abide by them. And my response will simply be : You may kill her. I don't even like her. And then they go " I'll kill you " and I'm just be " Take my life. I don't wanna study anymore" then they start judging me. Honestly, you can judge for all you want because I don't really give a damn. It'll be so much easier being dead without having to encouter the many problems that are lying ahead of you in life. If only these problems were that easy to run away from. But then, life won't be fun anymore  without these challenges. So here I am trying to overcome this problem that keeps bugging me during this entire week. If I havent told you then you can just ask me provided if I'm close to you. 

I totally screwed up Tuesday's ballet lesson. We danced for like hardcore 3 hours instead of the usual 2 hours because the exams are like 2 weeks away and my group is kinda screwed because Corrine pulled out from the exam and we're like facing a crisis here. And I don't know why my fucking brain can't remember the steps. I'm super pissed off at myself but I've no idea what to do either. Let's just hope that I sleep, and never wake up.