Y1S2 Midterm in a nutshell

" To love oneself is the beginning of a lifelong romance"

It's been a really long time since I came here. Life has been really busy honestly I forgot the existence of this blog and how often I used to come here in the past. Just wanted to note down the things that have happened since December 2018 because I feel so blessed despite how life isn't going the way I expect it to right now.

December was a month of self-doubt because I wasn't sure if I was making the right decision in terms of relationship. It took a long time for me to make up my mind after weeks of entertaining pessimistic thoughts in my head. No doubt my emotions went all the way down after all the shit that happened but I'm so glad I was filled with positivity from my friends and the people in DDC. Standard Charted with the dancers was pretty epic. We spent alot of time together talking about stupid stuffs and doing shitty jobs together. But I'm so glad I met them during those few days because it was the first step that helped me get over the breakup.




DDC Internal Competition:

These are probably my first few legit friends in DDC outside of the engin people. Really loved my team although we're not like the noisiest bunch of people but everyone's just nice and accommodating to one another. When Jiayi was giving us a pep talk before our turn to before I started crying cause I knew that it's the last time I'm gonna dance with the same few people as a team and all the fun practices really distracted me from having deep thoughts and all the pessimistic shit that was going on in my life. Didn't really get the results that we wanted from the competition but hearing how the fellow dancers liked our item really just warms my heart and puts a smile on my face despite the results. During team dinner I told them how grateful I was to have met everyone, and how we'll never get the chance to dance together again but it has really been a good ride.




DDC Camp:

A few days after Internal Competition was DDC Camp. I was so scared before camp began because I knew that there was 2 vs 2 freestyle competition on the third day of camp and that gives me so much anxiety. So I was the OGL for my group and I felt so small cause most of the people in my group were literally senpai seniors. I think I did a pretty bad job bonding everyone cause I barely talked and I didn't really know how to approach them ._. Attended 6 open classes during camps and it felt pretty good to do contemp again and try street jazz for the first time. On the third day of camp, they announced our freestyle partner after breakfast and when they announced my pair I was so shooked. It turned out to be Chloe a year 2 senior. I always noticed her during trainings cause she's pretty and her dance is pretty sick. In my mind I was like.. I'm so screwed dud... On top of that she's a comm member so that meant we had lesser time to practice together because she had to do admin stuffs here and there. So while waiting for her to do comm stuffs I sat at the staircase and plugged in my earpiece while everyone was practicing with their partner. Within the 2 hours that we had, Chloe drilled the basic steps with variations that I could do when my mind blanks out during the competition. I didn't have the mood for dinner and I was just jumping and hopping around cause my heart pounded so fast. Finally when it was our turn I was like AHHHH and then did all the random moves in my head. After our round ended, Chloe immediately started crying and I was losted for a moment cause I couldn't process what was going on and she said that she felt bad cause she felt like she didn't do well and felt like she dragged us down. I cried along with her and told her how grateful I was to have her as my partner and we just kept crying.. Thank god we made it to top 16 and got our second chance to go on stage again. Honestly, my mind was very tired and I went up and told myself to just relax. Looking back, I really could have done better because I was just throwing simple steps during the second round cause I was too lazy to think. But it was really a good experience.




Meet-ups:

Managed to catch up with alot of people during the holidays and the most unforgettable one has got to be the one with those 3 people up there. Honestly we've all changed since upper primary but I'm still glad this friendship still exists and how we're so comfortable with one another. Basically all we did was went to Charlotte's house, ate a TON of food, played overcooked and talked a shit ton. It's actually pretty hard for us to meet up somehow because everyone's so busy with their sport and school. But am still eternally grateful for them although I tilt sometimes because they take super long to reply my texts.

Sending Jeri off to Australia:

Was pretty hesitant weather I should send her off because it was during concert week and my body was dying. But really glad I went in the end. Initially I didn't have much feelings because I know she's going to come back to Singapore during the holidays. But when we sent her off to the departure gate I somehow ended up tearing up. It's just weird how a primary school friend of mine is going to be studying in another country, and how we wouldn't get to meet up as often anymore. Most importantly, I just hope she stays safe wherever she goes.

CAC+US Concert:

Ever since practice started in December, I couldn't wait for the concert to end already. Main reason being majority of my friends aren't in the same item as me and I felt pretty lonely. When Sem 2 started my body literally died because I was dancing 5 times a week. Super glad that it's over and I made quite a few friends towards the end of it as well. From all the toxic talks about the people we dislike to chill backstage moments and escaping the dressing room because its so crowded. Next concert up next : DU