Invinsible

Another troubled night. I can't seem to have a piece of mu mind huh ? God knows. Been feeling so fucked up. It's like I'm useless. Dude. I'm dumb enough already. Can't I at least have something that I'm good at ? Those people who said that I'm smart, you can go bang the wall. What kind of smart person gets last forty in the cohord ? Sorry but the things that you predicted are all wrong. I know I'm gonna get karma one day but I'm just dishing out all my emotions. If you're wondering who the hell I'm talking to in this paragraph then PM me cause I confirm will get karma if I say here. I already feel uneasy typing this but who cares ? since I'm already in deep shit let's just drop deeper. 

I'm always the one giving. Daebak. Always being the one attacked. Daebak. Isn't my life just awesome ? Haha you bet. What's wrong with me ? I don't know -.- I've probably gone mad already. I've no idea what to do now. And giving up is not one of the options given by my mum in my life. Someone tell me what to do now. Seriously. I'm feeling all fucked up now. Why am I so dumb ? God knows. The one always being thrown away, being reduced, being reused, being recycled. It's not funny at all. You haven't been through what I'm going through. you may have been through things even worse than this but you haven't experienced THIS. It's a different feeling from having family problems.