Thoughts in life

Drew this with the glitter pen because I got bored.

Attended someone's wedding today. It got so awkward cause me and my brother seated different tables with our parents. We ended up sitting with stranger -.- So i couldn't even eat my meal comfortably. Decided to quit watching dramas cause it just affects my emotions so badly T.T I skipped to the final episode for IU's drama and I was kinda glad that it was a happy ending :) Compared to Fashion King which didn't even have a proper ending... Heng I skip to last ep sia. Shall start singing again soon. 2 months without singing, my voice like kns liddat. Sian it's gonna take a long time till I'll be satisfied with my voice.
Recently, I've been thinking about how screwed my life is. Although exams are over, I still stressed somehow. It's like I'm that ugly duckling in life. Always lagging behind in everything, being judged by others. I want this freedom I'm having now to last forever. Thinking about growing up is just so terrifying. I used to think that growing up was kinda fun. But I guess that I'm wrong. Seeing people studying during the holidays makes me feel that I've wasted my life studying but acheiving nothing. Living is tiring. Why can't I be like the rest who succeeds in life ? I'm wondering why is my life like that. Forever giving, never taking. Am I a pushover ?