Trying to stay strong :)

On the verge of falling asleep but I've still decided to pen down my thoughts on what has happened tonight. So we had a long 1h plus talk and we kinda decided to end it and remain as good friends. I guess maybe we'll be better off this way. Who knows what'll happen in the future anyway ? I know forgetting about the past we had won't be easy but if he's trying then so should I. We may not be together anymore, but at least I know that I still haven't lost my good friend. Thanks for always telling me to look at things from a positive side and encouraging me to study when I feel like giving up. 

I would be lying if I said that I'm not thinking about doing anything stupid right now but I'm controlling myself. Also, I don't think I'll actually have the guts to do what I'm thinking right now. I'm trying to constantly persuade myself to be strong and that everything will be over soon in a matter of time. I only have myself to help myself right now. For the mistakes that I've made in the past, I can't erase them rihht now because it's all too late. But I guess I'll just have to treat it as a process of learning and growing up :) 

Today, after hearing about what he had to say, I kinda started reflecting on my actions.. Although it is too late, but I guess I know the consequences that my actions can bring to others now. Hmm maybe a hell load of people maybe hating on me right now, but like what I always tell my friends, who are they to judge when they don't even know much about me ? All they've heard are just baseless rumours or incidences that they've heard from their friends. I think that if they don't personally know me, then you don't have the rights to judge me for who I am. At the end of the day, it's the good friends that stick beside me that matter the most. To my good friends reading this post out there, I believe that you've made an impact in my life and I hope that we'll continue our everlasting friendship. No matter what happens, I'll be there to stick by your side. To me, friends are more important by my family members because.. well, my family is kinda complicated I guess. Maybe if only time could rewind, I won't be sitting here in a corner typing away....