Scrolled through my camera roll and then found this picture taken during english remedial about 4 weeks back. Sigh. Seeing myself smile that happily makes me kinda miss the past? It's been quite some time since I truly felt happy. March holidays are already jammed packed with activities and I doubt I'll have the time to hang out with my friends >.< Starting to feel so socially awkward right now. Looks like I need to start spending more time with my friends after my ballet exams are over... Life's pretty boring now that Common Tests are over? Lost the motivation to study so I can't really get anything done right now...
Feeling so much pressure right now especially with SYF... The schools before us are so strong that they got me worrying. Well I supposed I'm not supposed to show that I've lost hope because I'll be a really bad example for others so I still have to act as if we're gonna win this shit... Tough life.. And then there's ballet exams next week which I probably am I gonna regret after finishing the exams. It's so difficult to fake a smile and pretend that you're happy performing when you're feeling gloomy... Guess I gotta find some inspiration or something?
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