Speechless

190614 - The worst day of my life

" Even if I close my eyes, I still see us.
  There’s still a light there.
  I’ll deeply retain the times we had together.
  Even if pain comes over time,
  The promise I made for the rest of my life,
  I won’t ever forget that moment until the end."

Woke up in the morning and found out that Baekhyun and Taeyeon are dating. I felt damn lost and I didn't know what to do because everything was too sudden. Sometimes, it's funny how I like a person who doesn't even know of my existence.

I've no idea why I'm blogging about Taeyeon right now but I sound like some parent who's going to send their child off or marriage. Sounds kinda crazy huh? Ohwell, although I may feel fucked up right now, but I guess I'll eventually accept the fact that their dating. All good things come to an end right? So I guess I should just continue living as though nothing happened.

I just feel grateful towards Taeng for bring me into the K-POP fandom.. Reason being that I actually hated KPOP so badly.. But after watching the MAMA 2011 performace, her vocals attracted me and then my interest in KPOP started growing. I guess KPOP hasn't really influenced me in a really bad way? I've made friends with people online and they're really nice and caring. So I guess entering the KPOP fandom was one of the best thing that has happened to me, but at the same time, I get hurt whenever there's rumours.

I'm kinda glad that Taeng isn't lonely anymore and she won't have depression again. But I don't really get why must that guy be Baekhyun ._. I'm kinda jealous of Khun-Fany and Yoona-Seunggi now. Hope all Taegangers out there stay strong because everyone seems to be really affected too. Himnae~ hwaiting~